My pride is stronger than my feelings.
I could think of you 24/7 and you still wouldn’t hear from me.
Dear to me is sleep: still more, being made of stone,
While pain and guilt still linger here below,
Blindness and numbness—these please me alone;
Then do not wake me, keep your voices low.
Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
You are not IN the universe, you ARE the universe, an intrinsic part of it. Ultimately you are not a person, but a focal point where the universe is becoming conscious of itself. What an amazing miracle.Eckhart Tolle
So…. I’m going to the local nude beach tomorrow. With some kids from the intensive outpatient program I admitted myself to.
The never ending day that has been my last year may, after all, actually provide an anecdote or two for my autobiography.